I learned at one point, some point, that I was not lovable as I am. It was drilled in deep enough that it became truth. Others though, were thoroughly lovable and loved. I learned how to slop up the seconds from the love those others were lavished with.

I could watch someone be loved, say a friend, and feel that love as mine. I forgot though that they had worked in some way to make that love appear. So in my confusion I started thinking that since I could feel that love, it was also mine. Really confused I thought that other who loved my friend also loved me.

So not true.

I know that as of yesterday.

Thank you for the teaching.